Not long ago, I realized that every day I experience many things that have never happened before, and I started noticing them and making a daily inventory. I never put boxes on that shelf before. I never went to this store before. I've never eaten this food before. Just yesterday I realized that every day I give up something I will never again have in my life. Maybe even many things. Simple things like a phone message I wad up and throw in the trash. The ends of my fingernails I clip off. The idea of owning a house. Being able to say "I've never done a telecommunications work order before." The innocence of inexperience. Hopes and dreams. Today I gave up a piece of goddess art. On purpose. So now I take mental inventories of what I do every day I've never done before and what I give up every day that I'll never have again.