And just in that moment when I deposited a check in the night deposit, I was proud of myself because I didn't open it again to make sure the envelope had disappeared. I always run it twice, which I know is silly because it only takes once. The envelope is never in there the 2nd time. I count it as maturity that I didn't have to do it twice this time. And just as I stepped away I realized, I realized that I love the moment of realization. That is the moment I want, when I realize something, I am always writing or saying "and in that moment I realized" or sometimes more dramatically "in the glimmer of that moment I realized..." Oh I do revere that moment of realization. Somehow recursive, somehow ironic, realizing how much I love realizing. I kept flinging my fingers out repeatedly as I walked back to the car, as if to illustrate how the moment feels. In the glimmer of the moment I realized that I love more than anything the moment of a new realization. Realizations about realizations.