who was the dead man's lover?
do I need to let it go
should I have tossed that glamour shots
picture instead of stashing it
upside down in the drawer
was it lisa? adkinsen?
or is that wrong...
are these pictures all the same woman?
or not?
this woman, small bits of her here
me mourning a secret relationship
I know nothing about
she is not the widow
she doesn't get sympathy cards
or casseroles
she dumped him months ago
should I be honoring her somehow
their feelings
is that what I'm doing?
or is it morbid curiosity
what is right?
I will feel it when I need to let it go
who more natural to honor
secret relationships
than me
I will be the goddess
of the dignity of affairs
today
I will be holding her in my heart
whoever she is
today
I will be the deity of those
who seek comfort from grief
which lives below the surface
of life and love and pain and joy
which lives not on streets
in houses with yards
and addresses
but lives in secret telephone calls
and hurried encounters
lives like caulk in the cracks
of our lives
filling in the holes